In class last evening we spent most of the time going over the homework of looking at the stories that were preventing the students from really walking through the process of evaluating before an event and then right after.
So you are living your life… it is going wonderfully… yet you keep having these emotions that would in the past have you reacting with upsetness. Yet you can recognize it is not the person or persons you are with that is creating the scenario that should have you reacting internally as you are. What is going on?
Let’s start with a question that has haunted each of you once you began to question and answer your questions with honesty and openness. When you evaluate why you would do anything before you do so, and then truly critique the experience in the whole truth once you have gone through it…
When you are working on having your creations, the style of life, or those special things that you have always wanted to experience, and you seem to keep missing it by just a smidge do you ask yourself why? I know for a very long time I spent lots and lots of hours learning how to be positive, and then wondering why the things that I felt should be my experience never seemed to touch me for very long. I did get to touch some of the successes I desired or I think I would have given up. Then I began to realize that if I wasn’t willing to make the changes that were really sitting in my heart about the world that I lived in I sure would not be able to even feel the world I wanted to have and experience .
Each day you are going to want to take a look at the steps you took yesterday. How did you do in your communications with yourself? The way you know is by the interactions that you are having not only with those most intimate with you but how are you also interacting with acquaintances, and with people you are just meeting? How about people you are talking with on the phone or while walking into a gas station?
So how do you feel your communications skills are today as you begin to see changes in your world? Yet with those very special people in your life you are still feeling confused and not being heard by them. So how important is it to you to break down and understand why it is so important for you to be heard and understood by them?
So as I was sharing earlier, when you feel numb and simply do not see the glory of the world around you, what you are really feeling is the separation from your true god source. Scary? Well it should be. You are at a crossroads. Will you be making the choice of getting back into the connection and the path you chose before you were born?