I know that when you decide it is time to have joy in your everyday world, the possibility of it becoming a reality is really here for you to enjoy. If anyone has the drama for pain and suffering that I have had, please know I’m speaking to you, too. It was that deep pain from being raped, not only my body, but my young mind… by those who I felt should protect me, that could have left me stuck in misery and hopelessness. Yet that is not what happened.
When I was stuck in thoughts like, “If I could only have it now”, I found my life very frustrating. I was full of anger and was always upset with the people who shared my life with me. It did not matter if it was at work or at home, family or friends. I just felt all around frustration. I would go to the self-help book section and although I was always reading them, they always left me without the key to unlock the mystery of how to be happy with who I was and with those that I had chosen to share my life.
I think that some of the hardest things about changing ones self is when we are challenged by our closest friends and family. It always seems hard when they think we are bluffing and we walk quietly through their bluff and then have circumstances that could change their lives begin to happen.
I have spent a lot of time on mind chatter because this is the major block to our changing ourselves for the long haul. As I walk in my daily life I look back and remember how just sleeping was such a chore for me. I did not walk in a minute of the day where I was not worrying about how I was going to pay this bill, or what was I going to do about this person and how they acted. I could not spend time in really loving who I was or my life. I was one of those trying to be a ‘new ager’, of thinking positive. But behind closed doors, I was unhappy and a mess. I knew I was off and could not find the truth.
Okay, so I hear this uproar about detachment. Giving up on family and friends? Doing only for self?, this is against all that you have been taught. Well yes it is, unless you had a Guardian or Guardians who taught you otherwise. Most likely the only thing you have been taught was how to try to control each and every scenario in your world.
Have you been told you are bossy and always think you are right all the time? That you can not be trusted? Or is it the other way around… where you give so much of you and there is not one person that gives to you? Either way it is still out of control because: Continue reading
When you have those days that you just want to lie down and give up what do you do? What can we do to relieve the stress of children, bills, work, spouses? Of traffic on a crowded highway, when there is no movement at all and the guy behind you thinks beeping his or her horn is going to make the cars move magically in front of you.
Can you and do you take these things in stride? Or do they drive you instantly into wanting to scream and tear your hair out. Continue reading
We are all living in this world and so many things are going on around us… volcanoes, earthquakes, bad weather, friends around us, our families, everything seems to really be taking a major hit. How do we keep ourselves on track? How do we keep our heads above water? What does it mean to find an inner peace that holds us in an embrace that keeps us safe and loved as this goes on around us? Continue reading