You have now been practicing the art of questioning and being your own Guardian. Yet you still are having difficulty in taking those actions steps that stand up for you. It has been so long that you have spent worrying about other peoples feelings and needs it just simply feels wrong to you to stand up for your personal needs. So this simply means you have to continue to evaluate your self- worth over those other’s needs.
One of the things that I spend a lot of time working on with my students and clients is that once you begin to start communicating with yourself and others and for the first time you are feeling the effects of that communications, you can get hit by emotions when people do not recognize that you are trying to reunite with old friends and family. Because you have had stories that you have used to keep you from participating with your loved ones they have gotten used to a certain kind of behaviour from you.
When you begin to see that you have created a behavior to protect yourself from the very life you are living it is at times very overwhelming to try to take charge of your life. There are so many things that you have to bring to the table.
What is controlling vs taking charge? Is this not the most sought after question? If it isn’t it should be. How many of you feel the tight hold around your heart of someone who is telling you they love you when really what they are doing is trying to control and manipulate you into doing something for them that they are not willing to put the time or energy into doing for themselves.
The most freeing information I received while I was contemplating was that there is one reason and one reason only we come here on this wonderful planet. When I could understand this information, it gave me such peace of mind. Since then I have been working on the stories that are contrast to this one piece of information.
Why have we become so quick to deflect from any emotional or bad feelings when interacting with people? When you walk in the Universal Truth, you have come to an understanding where you realize the following – you make a choice, you have a physical experience, and then you analyze the physical experience to see if you would repeat any of the sequence steps that led you to have the physical experience.