We are all living in this world and so many things are going on around us… volcanoes, earthquakes, bad weather, friends around us, our families, everything seems to really be taking a major hit. How do we keep ourselves on track? How do we keep our heads above water? What does it mean to find an inner peace that holds us in an embrace that keeps us safe and loved as this goes on around us?
Until I learned that the only thing getting in the way of my true understanding, and the ease of this walk, was me… my life was really hard to live with. No pun intended. I felt the heavy, heavy burden of carrying the weight of my job, my family and the relationship between my husband and I. Then, I really got a grasp on what my feelings were doing to how I was experiencing my life.
How many times have we had the opportunity to take a baby step, but in our mind we could not see us changing our life structure to accept that baby step. That is the one place that keeps us experiencing over and over again, the life we do not want any longer.
When I began my journey on awakening to the truth of this Universe, I can say that expanding was not always what it was cracked up to be. I read lots of self-help and spiritual and even new age books. Yet, when I began, it only felt like my life was falling apart even more than what I had believed it to be.
I am a person who is in great joy when new understandings of myself surface. I love it when I meet new people of the same mind-set. When I have an opportunity to share the internal joy of growing and sharing, sometimes, as a dear friend has reminded me, those who I am playing with may not have the ability to tell me the truth of how my exuberance is putting pressures on them that they cannot stand up to.
I have had the most profound experience of understanding who I am. I have opened up a door that I will never walk back through in whom and what I am. I, like everyone, have a voice that had such a hold on me. Mine was one that as I walked into my life of teacher,actually held such a tight hold on me I almost made the choice not go any farther.
Okay, I have been working with my class and we have been discovering how to stand in the selflessness of self. In this discovery we have seen how when we think we are doing something for someone else, we should be getting a good feel and outcome. Yet this does not seem to be the case so much of the time. Why is that do you think?
I have had a very interesting conversation with a woman today. She had commented that she had consciously put up walls, so that someone would come and tear it down. I commented back that the power actually is in our own hands. We should not expect someone else to come and prove that they are listening to us. Her answer was she was listening but…….