In class last evening we spent most of the time going over the homework of looking at the stories that were preventing the students from really walking through the process of evaluating before an event and then right after.
When you are learning to use the most valuable tool that you have, evaluating each and every thought you allow to flow through your consciousness, you will at first be nervous about the changes that might occur in your life if you use this tool. Will you still have feelings about those you love and have in your life?
I was speaking about how great it is when you begin to see and are able to not be in that knee-jerk reaction as you can feel those emotions that want to make you say things or do things that makes you wonder who the heck you really are. You are now beginning to stand back from that small inner child and the learned behaviours that have you repeating those patterns in your life that frustrate you so much because they have you acting and/or reacting in ways that are truly detrimental to your well-being.
So you are living your life… it is going wonderfully… yet you keep having these emotions that would in the past have you reacting with upsetness. Yet you can recognize it is not the person or persons you are with that is creating the scenario that should have you reacting internally as you are. What is going on?
As you wake in the morning do you take the time to just stretch and go into your internal self? To take stock with sweet joy of all the things that your heart has been feeling, the creations that you have been thinking about? Take the time as you begin your day to accept the lessons that you have been asking your questions on. Accept the creations, learn to acknowledge and allow the new to come into your life.
One of the things that I do repeatedly throughout the year is to look back at what my life was like just six months ago. I do this so I do not lose sight of all the quiet changes that happen without a lot of fan fair or parades. I bring this up to you because at first giving up the victim mode of our society is not an easy feat. You must be sure that as you are doing your evaluation process that it is always about you, yourself, and no one else. Whenever you look at what decision you are making and the choices that you make in those everyday moments, you must be clear with yourself that they are yours and yours alone.